Im writing a second entry, I just to need to express myself safely. I miss her so much, as needed as this break is it just makes me miss her even more. The worst part is not even knowing how she feels about it. Why is the thought of her not thinking of me such a bother? Why can’t I just let go? There’s a lot of things I should just let go of. I hate how emotionally wrapped up I feel about things; positive and negative. Its half ten at night and I should be laying in bed next to her. Instead I’ve put myself in this stupid place again. It‘s so lonely and I keep crying😭 My meds need to hurry up and kick in. At least the consultant increased my quetiapine to 200mg at night. Hurry up and send me to sleep!
