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Wow, it's been a long time!
I can't believe the last time I wrote something on here it was just after new year. Just to bring you up to speed, as it's been ages...
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Forever alone 😂
Happy new year! Actually not that happy for me. I’m now officially single. Still yet to sort my housing situation too. I’m glad I worked...
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12 days of clean(mas)
Ignore the ridiculous christmas pun. Today is my 12th day of freedom from hospital. Which also means I’ve been clean for 12 days. It has...
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48 hours of freedom
Life after my admission has been a rollercoaster, again🤣 The first day I got out was just plain awful. If you’ve watched my gratitude...
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Dear Universe
It’s been a tough recently, not just for me but my loved ones too. I’ve had an overwhelming amount of love and support from many people;...
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Last night on the ward
I didn’t write anything yesterday as the consultant on the ward made me feel like expressing myself on this blog was a detriment to my...
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Hard to stay calm
I’ve felt lonely, anxious, agitated and low on and off whilst in here but right now I‘m struggling with voices and suicidal thoughts....
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Day 5 - Anxiety is settling in.
I have been experiencing anxiety more than usual today. I can’t help but worry about my future. Some people will say that if you can’t do...
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Day 4 and pretty poor
Not sure why this keeps flipping images sideways. There’s a lot of uncertainty surrounding my future. I mean the next few weeks or so....
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Poor Sleep and waking up to noise, again.
Yesterday I woke up peacefully. This morning I woke up to irate patients. ai believe it was due to them being woken up to breakfast and...
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Day 3
I’ve pretty much slept up until 3pm, with the exception of food, meds and physical checks. I slept well as expected. Upon my health check...
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Bedtime feelings.
Im writing a second entry, I just to need to express myself safely. I miss her so much, as needed as this break is it just makes me miss...
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Day 2 of being an Inpatient
Today I woke up to the sound of agression. Yesterday another patient nearly had a fight over breakfast, the same again today. He doesn’t...
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Once again I find myself making mistakes.
I’m really not proud of myself at all. I’m not ashamed of my illness but I’m not proud of what I did. On Tuesday even I took another...
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Taking a break, again.
So yesterday I deleted WhatsApp and temporarily disabled my Instagram account for the purpose of attempt some peace of mind, if only for...
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Yesterday I felt like a God. Today I feel like a ghost.
At the gig I felt like I was on top of the world. Today I went out to my usual shopping mall; Bluewater. I go to this place so I can play...
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A good day. I needed that.
Today was actually pretty good. I’m grateful for that. I did most of my Christmas shopping today. I feel like I got the perfect gifts for...
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Fear of abandonment and paranoia
The past two days I’ve really struggled to relax about my relationship. I’m sure it’s just in my head though right? The last time I felt...
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Give me strength - disappointed in the NHS, again
Today star off quite well actually. Slept well, felt like shit before I went to bed, but woke up feeling motivate. I went to bluewater to...
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Back from the birthday meal
Not long been back from the birthday meal. It felt weird having her out and it went way too quickly. I didn’t even feel like I could...
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