So yesterday I deleted WhatsApp and temporarily disabled my Instagram account for the purpose of attempt some peace of mind, if only for a short while. Carla is still in hospital and I’m getting used to the idea of being alone right now. The voices In my head keep telling me to avoid people, to which I keep being told different reasons why. I’m trying to push myself in the right direction and just get on with my life. Buts it’s such a challenge. I hope something good comes my way soon. Ive been experiencing that lack of emotion again, which is quite annoying. Seeing my children today so that’s something I’m really looking forward to.