At the gig I felt like I was on top of the world. Today I went out to my usual shopping mall; Bluewater. I go to this place so I can play Pokemon Go but to be honest I go there because I feel lonely. I feel more alone than ever right now. The other day I went to bluewater with my scars out and I could feel and see people looking at me. I can live with that. Today I was dressed up nice and it felt like no one even noticed me. No eye contact from anyone Or any sign that someone noticed I was there. Thousands of people around me in a positive vibe. Yet I felt like a ghost amongst them.